What Do i do Now? HeySistah Publishing

My Autisitic Son will attend school all day!! ALLLLLL DAYYYYY!! I have waited and prayed for this day so long I can't believe it;'s finally here!! Lord knows I waited a long time to have my kids to make sure I would be able to devote myself to them However, I wasn't prepared for how significantly considerable the amount of self sacrifice I would be required to give on a daily basis and the fact that it has taken 5 years for me to finally have some considerable free time to myself!! Thank god their Father is a wonderful provider and is very supportive of our financial and indulges us with all the comforts we could ever want.  I truly don't understand how people that have less than $300 a month to live on do it!! Now I find myself thinking OK whats next for me now?  Do I go back to school and start a new career, or do I steel myself for the next phase of motherhood as Nolan and Jordan are becoming opinionated individuals and are now fighting for the chance to sit

  JUST THINK ABOUT IT.... Today like most days was  a challenge in and of itself. My 7 yr old has more homework than I remember having in first grade, and I have to ask my friends to help me help my son with his 1st grade homework! At this rate one of us is definitely getting a tutor! I watch Dr. Oz to see how to manage my out of control health, weight and life at 46 and I watch the Chew to get an idea of what the heck to cook other than the usual, sould food, chicken, pork chops, pot roast, and steak.. It is definitely a struggle and it amazes me how after venting to a friend I found out we have similar life issues and she doesn't even have kids!! Wow and just think 100's of time a day I imagine what a carefree life i would have if I wasn't responsible for the life, education, happiness, health, education, growth and well being of my two boys.   Well now it seems thats not the problem, you can have the same issues i have without kids! Quality time for yoursel

Motherhood is one Helluva Job!!! Today has been a loooong day. Everyday is a struggle as I try to navigate life without my true north "my mommy" .  The pain of missing my mom is so profound and gut wrenching sometimes I wonder if it would be better just to have someone really hit me so at least the pain would be the result of a physical blow not manifested by the absence of the one woman that understood me emphatically. I don't care how old you are, when times are hard there is nothing like your momma telling you "everything is gonna be ok baby".  The latest current events don't make it any better, I'm still reeling fro m the empathetic feeling of loss I feel for Hidaya Pendleton s mom, at losing her daughter to the senseless violence on these Chicago mean streets.  Fear of being a casualty in a driveby shooting as an innocent bystander for myself and my 2 children is a reality I face everyday living here in the Englewood neighborhood of Chicago