AM I A BAD MOTHER? IN SEEING TO THE NEEDS OF MY AUTISTIC CHILD HAVE I FAILED MY OTHER CHILD?
Motherhood is one Helluva Job!!! Today has been a loooong day. Everyday is a struggle as I try to navigate life without my true north "my mommy" . The pain of missing my mom is so profound and gut wrenching sometimes I wonder if it would be better just to have someone really hit me so at least the pain would be the result of a physical blow not manifested by the absence of the one woman that understood me emphatically. I don't care how old you are, when times are hard there is nothing like your momma telling you "everything is gonna be ok baby". The latest current events don't make it any better, I'm still reeling fro m the empathetic feeling of loss I feel for Hidaya Pendleton s mom, at losing her daughter to the senseless violence on these Chicago mean streets. Fear of being a casualty in a driveby shooting as an innocent bystander for myself and my 2 children is a reality I face everyday living here in the Englewood neighborhood of Chicago