Fighting Autism I've Never felt more alone and yet I do feel stronger in my Faith
Life is crazy with its ups and downs. I never would have thought I would be where I am now, yet here I am. I started working sophmore year of high school and didnt stop until my mom got sick with cancer and had to have treatments 5 days a week. I dont regret stopping work to care for her, it was the best and worst time of my life. My mom and I became great friends and I came to understand her as a woman not just my mommie.
The child in me misses her everyday and longs for the soothing tones of her voice, it always made me feel like everything was gonna be ok just because she said it. Now my sons look to me to give that reassurance and comfort. I never thought that I would have to protect them from their loved ones too.
I see so many people that have subsidized housing that are lazy and trifling and unambitious.
I just want a safe and clean home for myself and my children and I can't seem to catch a break, I think about how much money my kids would receive from Social Security if I were dead, but I can't imagine anyone would ever care for, love or be an advocate for them as much as I do so I soldier on. I'm bening evicted from an apartment that is the worst place i have ever lived and would never choose for me and my kids. I watch all this shows on TV and see women cary purses, and wear clothes that cost the same as a small home for me and my kids and it makes me cry and fell utterly hopeless and totally defeated.
My mom raised me in faith and to have faith so I'm gonna read my bible and have faith that God has not forsaken me and that he doesn't close a door without opening a window.
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